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Thursday, December 03, 2009

Expect and something will happen!

yst post was the 300th post:) this is 301:)

it is been 3years and ard 4 mths since i started blogging! and i have changed 3 blog add:) hahahas

wanna share how awesome and great God is, when i did not even pray about it, all i said was i am gonna go figure out how and He made a way.

story is that: during prayer grp i found out that 12dec was worship night and i really wanna go cos i really love worshipping the king of all kings, but i had a-team christmas party and i promised to go, so i said see how, i go for worship night then leave early to rush down for the party. but today i found out that the date had been moved to the 13th of dec!

praise the lord, my dilemma is solved, i can enjoy the full worship session and just bask in His presence, feel His love and kindness for me, and trust that all my stress, trouble, problems will just disappear and it will turn out good cos of the work of God, and i also get to enjoy the full x'mas party:)

thanks God,

expect and He will move,

trust and have faith and once in a while He will provide a miracle, and no matter how small it is, thank Him for it, cos it still shows he care:)

i love you lord!

XOXO Natty

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Happiness is from within, and not from others

Some how i realised you do not know me as well as i want to or think you do.

i am giving in time and again, and holding on even when i am tired, cos i want things to work out and not be gone, that whatever advices the rest give i take to see how i can make it work, but i want to be the childish one who do not need to think much and be responsible.

i am tired,

my joy comes from the inside out, and it is genuine, every smile on my face is joy frm my Lord, that i am truly happy, and i do not need events or people to please me to be happy.

i feel so filled to the brim with the pile of work and events and problems in my life and such, i wanna give it all up by throwing it aside, but i cant, cos i have to be responsible.

XOXO Natty

Saturday, November 28, 2009

haha! a picture speaks a thousand words as they say, thus the many photos below in the next post which is too messy for me to even write!

so scroll on down and see what happened!

i got a pic with my twinnie before law ica, with baby ernest and one priceless face, he had many:) hahahs and thn late lunch at pasta mania with besties, thn chomp chomp with pau, lynn, jerome and jerald and it rounded of with a nice chat with bff at tau huey:)

had a nice 18th birthday, the actual day with ambass peeps:) and little kids, the 26th a close knitted affair which was nice:)

THANKS FOR THE PRESENTS, MESSAGES AND FB wall writing peeps:)

REALLY LOVE YOU ALL MANY MANY:) <3>

p/s: get ready to go blind in the photo post, and fb is pissing me off!

XOXO Natty

awesome 18! an album flooded with my face:)

XOXO Natty

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Shan Shan's (zd)awesome birthday poem for me:)

It had been a journey

Knowing and understanding you

With the blink of an eye

We had known each other for a year

This is the day the Lord has made

The day where heaven rejoices

And the day you came to this world

For Without this day,I wouldn't know you

When you was a kid,everything's fine

Now that you are all grown up

Things started to change

Life gets rough,things get tough

But press on my sister

For the lord is our shepard

He shall guide us and guard our hearts

For he is indeed our provider

We shall stand under his shelter

Shielded from dangers

Though life may disappoints you

Our God will never fail nor forsake you

For his grace and love is sufficient

And you shall go far in life

With his name glorified through you

And his love spread through you

He shall carry you through

Give you peace and faith

For as long as you press on

One day,you will be home

I am indeed glad and thankful

To have you in this race

And we shall finish the race strong

And be at the place we call home

XOXO Natty

He created me beautiful and called me beautiful :)

Before the beginning of time, I knew you. I knew what colour your eyes would be, and I could hear the sound of your laughter. Like a proud father who carries a picture of his daughter, I carried the image of you in My eyes, for you were created in My image. Before the beginning of time, I chose you. I spoke your name into the heavens and i smiled as it's melody resounded off the walls of My heart.

You are Mine. My love for you extends farther than the stars in the sky and deeper than any ocean. You are My pearl of great price, the one for whom I gave everything. I cradle you in the palm of My hand. I love you even in the face of your failure. Nothing you say or do can cause Me to stop loving you. I am relentless in My pursuit of you. Run from Me, I will love you. Sprun me, I will life you. Reject yourself, I will love you. You see, My love for you was slain before the foundations of the world and I have never regretted the sacrifice I made for you at Calvary.

When I see every part of who you are, I marvel at the work of My hands, for I whispered words of longing and desire and you came into existence. You are beautiful, and I take pleasure in you, heart, mind, body. You are My desire. When you turn your head in shame and despise what I have made, still I reach for you with gentle passion. You are My beloved and I am yours.

-adapted from- Who calls me beautiful by Regina Franklin:)

This is how much i am loved, even when all else fails, i can lean back on His love for me!
I love you God, and thank you for creating me on such a special day, with such a blessed name that you named me:) i am so proud to be your creation even though the christian life is not the easiest! Thanks for calling me beautiful, that all other judgement will not matter:)
i trust in You always!
xoxo
natalie:)

XOXO Natty

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

ele and tnc:)

Met up with mrs bill gates and ele the elephant today:) had a birthday celebration for me:) they got me a sweet little cake, ate astons and now they officially owe me my present:) hahahs yaaay till chomp chomp your have weeks to get my pressie! ahhahs! so much fun crapping and laughing at each other! we seem quite on diff frequencies at times but still fun:)

its gna be PRINCESS NAT'S birthday! ahahhs

natalie is excited happy joyful and all good words, cos she is finally 18! like it will makes much difference, the only diff is tht i get to have fun and its my birthday and i am a yr older and yeah just happy cos it is my birthday and its party time!

and marketing ica was blah! serve me right for not spending more time to study! hahahs

wonder what i get for finance ica? and efma! hahahs

family and youth finally done! left law ica!

wed is child's play:)

Joy unspeakable that won't go away

And just enough strength

To live for today

So I never have to worry

What tomorrow will bring

'Cause my faith is on solid rock

I am counting on God

XOXO Natty

Monday, November 23, 2009

Epicness

Had a mad week this week with 3 icas and it all ended on fri!

some papers were good and some were blah, but at the end we went to pizza hut and celebrate the end of the bad week:) hahahs and at pizza hut the service was:(

at pizza hut they did smth very epic! there were 2 other ppl who had their birthday being celebrated and so as usual they saw someone sing a birthday song loudly they said ok lah natalie your birthday soon we sing for you! hahas it was funny, sweet, touching in some ways and yes totally embarassing! but this are my mad friends that i totally love alot and my love for them will not change no matter what happens and neither will it in years, k i shant spoil it by saying except tht few persons! hahahs

thn the table beside us complaint and hahas they bitch about tht person and her little gang of ppl! so hilarious and epic! and my birthday is not even here yet! i wonder what will happen on the actual day! i am scared now! ahahahs

i really thank God for such an awesome bunch of friends be it in the clique or out and in church! really blessed to have them who bring joy, laughter and wipe away my tears with their hands and hugs and upsets with nice words, tolerating my crap attitude and nonsense behavior of a 17 daily with my rabbit friend:) hahahs and msg-ing prayers when i say can you pls pray for me! this little action touches my heart always when they do it, i may not always say it but thank you friends for all you have done:)

Had a nice long chat with my sissy on the bus to ps on sat, really nice chat about many diff things and i realised many things also! that sometimes i must take actions for things to move in some ways, and God answered my prayer:) hahahs shant say abt wad bt it was like a long ao prayer t ht got answered! so cute can! and on MSN had a great chat with my bimbo baby:) really encouraging and all but still have to grow in God and trust in His timing even more!

and i am dead! tmr there is marketing ica and here i am on blogger updating my fb!

tmr night gna chill with ele and tnc when i have my family and youth report undone still! say WOW natalie! ahhahs

i cant totally wait till i turn 18! and i have no idea what is that hype for but i guess even when i turn 50 i will be proud of who i am, cos i guess i have confidence in God for making me beautiful as He deems and not what the world says!

and i am trusting in the Lord tht marketing will turn out fine with i promise more thn 4 hrs of study like maybe 8 instead cos of the time i took to write my notes! ahhahs.

God bless all and have a great week ahead:)

xoxo

natalie <3

XOXO Natty

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Hope!

13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

this verse says it all, Our God is the God of hope and that hope is seeing things good even when there is nothing.and our spirit dies when our hope dies.

Hope is the partner of faith and even if we are going through tough times we have the living hope with us so we have to trust and have faith in the living God, to know that He will provide even if it is in the most unusual ways!

gonna share a testimony of how God worked in the most unusual way!

i was praying God, pls provide financing for me for camp as i did not work during the hols and all lah, so somehow, my classmate junior wanted to buy a book and he so happen to ask me and i so happen to have the book so i managed to sell it and raise like 30 bucks! so i am like gna pay finish my youth camp fees and i realise end of the year makes me real real real broke:( but trust God, have hope that he will pave a way out even if it seems like the last min cos it all matters in His time and not our time, so keep your fire alive and have hope tht He will use you even if it sees like your just a creation on earth! ask Him, complain, cry, argue and He will ans cos He wants to be our friend, father, brother and God too!

school has been tiring and hectic, with this week and next flooding with Icas and starting projects now to:( really need God to strengthen me, keep me healthy, a gd brain to study and do project and understanding of wadever that i need to do, grow in God and end this yr with Him well is all i ask for! alot but i know it will come through:)

Our hope is Yahweh!

i love you Jesus:)

your AWESOMES!

XOXO Natty

Saturday, November 14, 2009

cheers:)

Today and yst was quite awesome with the outing!

but other than that it was quite spoiler,

had wiki presentation which was blah!

thn dim sum with gang :) and outing with Bff on thurs:) had fun just spending time eating and chatting random stuffs, but somehow it feels different, and i guess i have to go fix it out before i leave.

sat is here<3

I guess the tep results are released and i kinda expected those results, but being human i just cant reconcile with it, and i guess i need to try to improve and be an all-rounder, mummy said this to me, that tep is an attachment, it is not how gd you are but how much favor you can gain, thts why you cant compare grades for this, and i guess mummy is right, i really need to run this sem 2 race very well with God, i am gna have a sem lesser thn my friends to pull my Gpa up so i really hope i do very well this sem! hopefully like smth close to a 4point Gpa. i have my dreams of entering a local uni still.

Below is the story of daniel from chap 6:9 - 23!

it shows the faith He had in God to rescue him when he was thrown in to the lion's den cos of his faith and love for God, as he ignored the king decree of not praying/worshipping any God other thn the king for 30 days.

i feel like i am thrown into the lion den, like i had everything, life was great like i had the power to do things like daniel did, and things happen and i feel like i am in the lion den, afraid in the dark, wondering what is going to happen next, but i am gna trust in God, continuing praying, seeking Him, humbling myself before Him, cos i though i had a heart of humility but when faced with troubles i realise i didnt trust Him enough and that i thought i was good in things and stuffs, t hat i have many things to learn and reflect in the "lion's den" but i know in due time, God will rescue me from the den and use me for greater works that He has planned just that i cant see it.

The royal administrators, prefects, satraps, advisers and governors have all agreed that the king should issue an edict and enforce the decree that anyone who prays to any god or man during the next thirty days, except to you, O king, shall be thrown into the lions' den. ⁸ Now, O king, issue the decree and put it in writing so that it cannot be altered—in accordance with the laws of the Medes and Persians, which cannot be repealed." ⁹ So King Darius put the decree in writing.

¹⁰ Now when Daniel learned that the decree had been published, he went home to his upstairs room where the windows opened toward Jerusalem. Three times a day he got down on his knees and prayed, giving thanks to his God, just as he had done before. ¹¹ Then these men went as a group and found Daniel praying and asking God for help. ¹² So they went to the king and spoke to him about his royal decree: "Did you not publish a decree that during the next thirty days anyone who prays to any god or man except to you, O king, would be thrown into the lions' den?"

The king answered, "The decree stands—in accordance with the laws of the Medes and Persians, which cannot be repealed."

¹³ Then they said to the king, "Daniel, who is one of the exiles from Judah, pays no attention to you, O king, or to the decree you put in writing. He still prays three times a day." ¹⁴ When the king heard this, he was greatly distressed; he was determined to rescue Daniel and made every effort until sundown to save him.

¹⁵ Then the men went as a group to the king and said to him, "Remember, O king, that according to the law of the Medes and Persians no decree or edict that the king issues can be changed."

¹⁶ So the king gave the order, and they brought Daniel and threw him into the lions' den. The king said to Daniel, "May your God, whom you serve continually, rescue you!"

¹⁷ A stone was brought and placed over the mouth of the den, and the king sealed it with his own signet ring and with the rings of his nobles, so that Daniel's situation might not be changed. ¹⁸ Then the king returned to his palace and spent the night without eating and without any entertainment being brought to him. And he could not sleep.

¹⁹ At the first light of dawn, the king got up and hurried to the lions' den. ²⁰ When he came near the den, he called to Daniel in an anguished voice, "Daniel, servant of the living God, has your God, whom you serve continually, been able to rescue you from the lions?"

²¹ Daniel answered, "O king, live forever! ²² My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouths of the lions. They have not hurt me, because I was found innocent in his sight. Nor have I ever done any wrong before you, O king."

²³ The king was overjoyed and gave orders to lift Daniel out of the den. And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.

XOXO Natty

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Real random, real lame!

This is a real lame, real random post to make me laugh and de-stress:) hahahs

we are gna be reindeers, cute right the ears? from watsons after alpha on our way to the bus stop we went shopping:)

this is what i did for my farah! cos she cannot find the time:0 hahahs

this is when we webcam! cos i needed help in choosing the

design for the board:) hahahs, see the photo? same pose

forever!

Lastly is this photo! i shld use it for blackmail one fine day i think! hahahas my real retarded bff:) hehehe :) and till the next time we meet! ciao! i am gg mad oficially!

XOXO Natty

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Loves psalm 139

This whole week has been a real tiring week!

halloween photos are up on fb,so is bffs bday photos:)i am home on an average of like 8pm daily and i am drained out, so dinner with family on thurs was really awesome:) i miss my parents! hahahs!

today alpha was awesomely nice! they celebrated the nov babies bday, and bibi was the one who got the presents and she got me a nice bangle which i love totally:) thanks alpha for the present and prayers:) i really love you guys loads and miss you loads too! its been a long while since i saw you guys! gna see your tmr:) EGGGCITED!!!

and i need to start studying! ica is like in 2 weeks time and i have not start studying, projects are also coming in and we are starting it! stress level is coming up and many sleepless nights too!

i totally need to spent more time with God, my parents and staying at home to rest and study:)

gna watch love happens with clique in the following week, plus outing with bff:) happiness:) plus dimsum and minds cafe soon!

alpha gna start on anthr m18 series abt evangelism and i am gna try to go often:)

Psalm 139 is really awesome and sweet:) it just says about God's love for us, and how much he knows us, better than anyone in this world and thn if He is for us who can be against us, plus all our days are written before hand so no matter what there is always a way out cos God have planned it out properly, tht no matter what we go through will be for His glory and He will deliver us when it it time!

I LOVE YOU GOD!

¹ O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.² You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.

³ You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways ⁴ Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.⁵ You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me

⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there

⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.¹¹ If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,"

¹² even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you ¹³ For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.

¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well ¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

¹⁶ your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be ¹⁷ How precious to ^{b]" style=" line-height: 0.5em; ">[b]} me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!

¹⁸ Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake,i am still with you ¹⁹ If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!²⁰ They speak of you with evil intent; your adversaries misuse your name.

²¹ Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD, and abhor those who rise up against you?²² I have nothing but hatred for them;I count them my enemies, ²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.²⁴ See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.

XOXO Natty

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Halloween:)

i had an awesome but tiring week at school!

on mon there was buddy grp,

tues watched my sister's keeper with my a'team mates:) 20 ppl! epic:)

thn fri i had alpha :) i love the daniel series! really learned abt faith and such

halloween was awesome on sat! was tiring and all but i had so much fun! i so love ateam!

and pau pau made a nice masquerade mask for me:):) i love it! thn supper with them and stay over at pau hse:) happiness!

but i realise i did not do my tut and i am still rotting with a list of must dos by 3rd nov! so god bless me! i must study and i need to maintain my grades and stuff but god spoke through :

matthew 6:32 -34

do not worry like the pagans, for the pagans run after these things, and your heavenly father knows that you need them. but seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. each day has enough trouble on its own.

and as i look back to daniel it really talks about having faith and know that at the end even as we face trials and tribulations and problems God will rescue us from the den of lions:)

i love you God, thanks for the assurance!

XOXO Natty

Monday, October 26, 2009

peek-tures!

my week in school, celebrating joe's birthday!
mel's performance @ smu treehouse
nike race with bunno!
chase, run , victorious with a team
and ernest on the grass patch at my hse dwn stairs!
school is gna be more hectic and i cant update as frequently as ever, like i even do so now!
and i have so many things on my plate, many thoughts and all, i am going mad!
bunno one day we gna chil out tgt ok! my beloved sissy! youre turning 19!
ruiling baby! wed:) wo miss ni!

nike run!!!

A-TEAM!

my fav sister & bestfr!

mel performance day:)

ruiling:):):) <3

XOXO Natty

Thursday, October 22, 2009

My shepherd goes before me into the valley

School started and basically my class suck!
but to lessen the suckiness i have clique with me which basically rocks!
they bring so much laughter, giggles, crap, rubbish, complaints that sch is fun most of the time.
and thanks to that ah shan i am business finance rep!

this first week back to school we already know our project groupings which are not very fab for some but overall thank God i have team mates that are workable, now left marketing and ict which i really have to pray hard for good group mates, cos this sem is a 7 module sem which is heavy and totally new subjects!

but overall i had loads of fun this week, breakfast with the clique on mon cos lessons so awesomely starts at 12pm nt like last sem of 8 am,
thn tues we had Joe bday celebration:) uncle joe your 19:)
wed had a game of truth and truth so exciting, ateam:) totally awesome announcement guys for halloween plus the awesome events:) and also gym with pau and more chats:):):),
thurs chill with my baby ruiling<3,
fri is awesome with alphapha and
sat the epic day! nike run omg! and sentosa with ateam thn culture! i will be sore and breaking on sun!
oh god i need to study, even though sun i am suppose to rest in God, i swop it to my study day, hopeflly i am nt dying all over tht i cant even study!
i will mug hard, rely on god doubly more and do well this sem to maintain what i have attained cos of the wisdom God has blessed me with.

i love you god, thanks for your encouragement and your word:

john 10:4 When he brings out jis own sheep, he goes before them, and the sheep follow him!

We may well be dismayed at what life has for us this year and next, but our shepherd knows the way we're taking, and He goes before. He will not lead us down paths too dangerouus ortoo ardous where He cannot help us. He knows our limits. He knows the way to green pasture and good water, all we have to do is follow!

our unknown future is secure in the hands of our all-knowing God!

XOXO Natty

Monday, October 19, 2009

back to school!

after 3 to 4 weeks of holidays school is finally starting:)
i am so excited for school to start where the usual clique will be around me, crapping, playing, mugging hard and chionging over projects and all, but the love, kindness and all will be overflowing:)
bun, ezora and sarah will be around school somewhr for me if i really need them, be it to play or rant!
prayer grp will resume, kinda excited for it noe though:) hope we will really grow!
but as the sem starts the date of release for TEP results looms ahead
and me flying away after the sem exams right on chinese new year midnight is scary, but i shant worry myself with the little things of this world but the bigger things of God for God!

this sem i pray that i will grow closer to God, build a stronger foundation and mature tht when i am away for N*C and family i will have uncompromising faith, love for God, and attitudes that will defile me.
and below is a prayer that i took from the book i read, bt not done the study guide yet: passionate faith!

Dear heavenly Father,I need your help i'm so tired of trying to manage my life and difficult situations in my own strength. Right now, i'm choosing to trust you. Help me to let go and to quit trying to manipulate things to work out the way I think is best. Thank you for loving me and for caring about my problems.

Please take away the fear like you did for Jochebed and Amram . Exchange my anxiety for your peace. Help me to rest in the knowledge that you have a special plan for my life.

In the precous name of Jesus ! Amen!

totally love this prayer and i pray that when i am trying to run on my own strength i will see this prayer agn that i will let go for God to be in control cos He created me so He knows things better than i do:)

i love you God:)

see you in school where we will be victorious:)

XOXO Natty

Thursday, October 15, 2009

(500) days of not so summer!

my awesome outing with my fav and one and only bimbo to catch (500)days of summer not my best choice of movie but i still love it and the story line how it jumps here and there! and my f21 are here:) glees joyfully! some pics to preview!

time really flies, sem one is over and now i am approaching sem 2 after my short 3 weeks break which i am actually blessed to have:)

this 3 weeks has been alot of outings with all my different friends the occasional ones with the clique. but i have grown over this 3 weeks where God really gguided me to do things i never thought i would do, give full restoration for issues, loving me as always and taking me in His arms when i shed tears, i have been growing in God, reading His word and also reading many books and i feel awesome and closer to Him at times but as i grow and mature in HIm more, the tears get lesser, the smiles get more and really is only God can do it by providing the friends in my life that brings so much joy at points and also to those that hear my rants and sadness and all of my things when i really needed you guys, your flooded me with advices, hugs and also keep me in your prayers, really thanks my womans! your are constantly in my prayers too:)

this hols had been filled with many movie outings, a short trip to batam, chill out at houses, painting and many many chatting sessions which feels so awesome:)

i had my first movie with bun, sarah, and even baby ernest. that many firsts man!

and the only thing i am flooded with is my application to HZ and also pau's present:) hahahs

i enjoy this hols alot but i realise i have not been spending much time resting and rotting at home which i want too! but i shant grumble about it:)

Bff i am too lazy to write your letter so! wait ok!when i feel like it i will write and half of what i wantt to say do not matter anymore, things are different, i have changed, and somethings said are also a waste of time cos it no longer matter nor you will undersand and all and instead it will ruin us

my fav bimbo :) WO AI NI! thanks for being there all this while, to hear everything,share my worries, to share your stories and in turn encouragement in issues that are similar or not:) and the man fun outings we had be it just rotting at home:)

bunno:) WO ye AI NI! had alot of fun we nvr had done before even though i have known you coming to 4 years:) the batam,painting of hse,henderson waves, movies and even nike run is all cos of you! you made me healthier you made me smile more, you knew what i was going through and gave me your shoulder to lean on cos you went through it too! thanks:)

pau! aunty pau heh your 18th my gym buddy who eats after gymming:) hahahs this hols had fun with you too with the awesome stayover,fame movie and many more:) love ya! hope you had fun in obs!

nad! you are like my mummy/solid rock, when my world was on the verge of collapsing you were there for me to listen, tell me dun cry, even though i was being an ass you still stood by my side and logically and patiently explain to me stuffs and all! xie xie ni nad nad!

ps :) we nvr had a very close friendship after yr 1sem 1 and after you got a bf we are nt very close to you to give your space, but now i noe we were wrong at points that you really yearn to be with us, you another awesome friend who actually can keep secrets:) hahahas k sorry abt that but really glad to have you as a friend:) even though with you i am always a lightbulb! haix! hahas!

XOXO Natty

Monday, October 12, 2009

PAULINA 18th!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY PAU PAU!
really glad to have you as a friend and i have loads of fun with you around me, your my joy, laughter, nonsense partner, gym friend, rubbish bin to hear my nonsense and all, thank you pau!!! always be happy! keep smiling and so glad you love your presents esp the touching board plus the surprise you got!
love ya loads!
p/s: stitch is awesomely cute!

XOXO Natty

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Movies :)

this old photo i just had to upload it! my loves of bj:)

my darl bim<3>

my yummy cookies and cream hello panda

loving it:)

beloved bunno:)

love her loads:)

batam with you dearie was awesome:)

exoticness:)

Movies are an awesome way to not talk to people when you go out with them and awkard silences are there so you fill them and pass time by catching a movie!

but there are many times a good movie where we catch or it is like the latest and must see so we head down to the cinema to watch them

how many movies have i watched this year in the cinema you ask? 10

on dvd. online? 4

and i realise all are like chick flicks or romantic and on comedy, like bridewars, the proposal, the ugly truth, high sch musical, fame, night at the meuseum, harry potter, dance subaru and on and on the list goes!

and imagine the amt of money spent on 10 movies?

n estimate of $68 bucks are spent on a person but i got like 4 free movies cos was a treat :):) heh heh but still it is money!

k i am rambling and on and on! really brainless talking!

to ease my guilt of watching too many movies i went to sks to get books to read!
my long awaited who calles me beautiful

off the shelf listening to god

a study guided book passionate faith
and i still have my a time travellers wife book to read!

i am a satisfied and happy soul!

this week has been enriching, different events took place, really i grew over this week with the conversations i had, i really enjoyed this week even though it was tiring at points

i packed and threw away my notes in preparation for sem 2 makes me feel good too!

XOXO Natty

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Welcome home!

home is and will always be the best place on earth, no matter where we go, who we are with and all!
but where is home! a place where you reside in? or where all your loved ones are at? for me is the latter with my smelly apong! k joking! ahhahs

just came home from batam and i dun really miss home but i feel so much safer from the staring eyes of the wierd ppl there.
but i had an awesome time with bunno, chillaxing under the sun by the pool till we are burnt! eating the so cheap jco, sumo-ing the breakfast, the yumms seafood, the awesome missing in spore A&W, being aunties in the hypermart and found out abt the cookies and cream hello panda biscuits! awesome dress shoppping at a price beyond imagination! hahahas!
batam changed alot since 10 years ago and i am impressed by them and i quite love it now! i shall upload some pictures the next time rd and on fb till thn
ciaos!
xoxo natty!

XOXO Natty

Thursday, October 01, 2009

i simply adore you!

i have been out almost daily in ways and sorts over this few days, and at every outing there are only smiles and more photo taking. joy has been so ever present even through the problems that are faced at home, that God proides the peace, joy and laughter and only through Him its possible! that i have seen my parents mood frm being real stressed to being more relaxed and really i can only say ! praise the lord!
dad knows i have been praying for his issue, mum knows that i dont like and wont club, and that cos its due to church taking up the time and also the teachings! in time to com ei am gna see salvation!

mon was with ele and tns for tnc pre-18th celebration:)
had loads of laughter and we played true or dare! really got to know how much we disliked each other in the beginning and now we are best of friends! really love you 2 woman loads! and when sch opens i am sorry if i am busy all day long!

tues was family dinner for mama! the extended family side, it was nice and it feels like church, with the kids i see in sunday sch, the aunts and uncles, cousin and even youth pastor! it feels so awesome and like home!

wed i had a spam of dates, morning was pgs, i passed! thn i went to see nad, ah shan, jerome. thn i saw a bk called what to do with your daughter or sorts, its abt we as girls when we need our mum at a certain age but instead of goint to them we keep ourselves in the room! wonder if i shld get that for mummy? and evening i went gym-ing with pau, and had dessert with her bf &tong! like it helps the gym! and lastly i met bff at the bustop! how awesome can this be! it is tiring to rush here and there but it just put a smile on my face when i see them all and get those many hugs!

thurs is mummy bday:) i got her nth expt the cake! i am real tempted to get the book now! maybe it will be the root to get her saved! but shhe dun read oh well i shld try it out!
fri gna be a rot at hm day! before i head off to the airport for alpha! original plans was shelved but i dun mind cos i wanna be a worm at home!
weekends to batam with family and bunno! how exciting! really looking forward to it and the sun but nt the burnt part!

i am having a mad and packed schedule maybe cos its only a 3 wks hols! if this was 8 weeks i would have hated it and hunt for a job high and low! neext wk, mon i am out for p.hunting, tues with xy! SARAH Y! wanna crash my hse and stay for dinner? need to have a quick fix of you! and the list goes on! but i am trying to crash all dates tgt so tht i can spent more time at hm! sat and sun i am also out!
God! let me have enough rest so i wont fall sick and at the same time let my focus be You and not the world even if i am out all day long, that i can see my parents and spent time with them even if i am so busy!
i simply adore you God!

XOXO Natty

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Love!

God has been speaking to me 2 main topics, love & sins.
that he wants me to have a bigger heart to love people and through that bt the salt and light and fish men in, and also have a bigger heart to accept His overflowing love.
also on sin tht He spoke how the world will end due to our sins, and repentance and even in culture Ps Adrain spoke, i guess in this season i must learn all this among all the other things he want me too, for most things that i must grown and change comes from sins.
that i will grow to be a woman of God full or love, kindness,joy, and all in humility as He prepares me for service in the ministry He wants me too, which i know cos God has been speaking.
iloveyouGod! youre really an awesome father,
all i have i give you praise & thank you for it!
use me the way you created me for! making me stronger in you!
heal me before i even fall sick God!
i will live to love you & live to bring you praise
i am a child in awe of you!
before i go i leave you with a passage from the scripture:)
ponder and reflect on it!

"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.
11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child.
When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face.
Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

with loads of love
xoxo natty <3

XOXO Natty

Thursday, September 24, 2009

specially for you S!

Sarah my one and only favourite bimbo!

i love you you so much and thanks for always being there, you walk me throught the valley and so do i for you! always giving me advice when i need it, prayers when i need it, hugs when i need it, you are there for me not always, you have your own life so do i and we give each other space, or rather i will say we take each other for granted at some points, but i am thankful that some how when we need each other we will be there for each other, i really thank God for you!

now as i rewind to how we became friends i realise our friendship is like a roller coaster!

year 1 sem 1: we were close as a ball, we spent alot of time tgt! between our friendship there were some issues, but we worked it out cos its wasnt centered in us.

year 1 sem 2: we splited, we had our difference which i promise or rather, finally have the courage to say and pin point what caused pur friendship to tear apart, we were so confident of our friendship tht we took it for granted did we? we only met like once the whole sem? that was one of the worst times we had, the really low point in our friendship which i thought maybe i lost a friend.

year 2 sem 1: we both had our own life going, i had TEP, you had normal lessons, i tried to arrange meetings and you always said will tell you agn, and it nvr happens, you had your own friends and all, i was really tired to keep the friendship gg, i almost gave up but somehow God intervene, He said give your friend some space and such but also he made you call me, it just seem so arranged by HIm, and now as we walk the end of sem 1 going on to sem 2 where the roles will be reversed, i hope our friendship will be different, not like yr1sem2 nor yr2sem1 but in the middle or sorts, where we will make time for each other, and meet occasionally not when we are free or we ut each other last on our friends calender.

lets grow in God tgt, learn how to grow our friendship tgt with God and take it to the next level, no matter what you do i am proud of you k bimbo darl! and keep growing in God!

xoxo <3 you loads

XOXO Natty

Monday, September 21, 2009

I'm so in love with you!

last week other thn being FUN, more Fun the next word to describe is STRESS/ BAD and more STRESS!!!
it was project week where we will rush both CS and PM to hand in this week, which is alright but still argh!
on friday half the cs grp went to the otel we have chosen to do a look see ard the hotel, and see the surroundings and such! and gantt chart is such a screwed thing! but thank God it is fixed:)

alpha on friday is such a bomb:) it was worship night, and it was nice to throw down all the stress to God and focus on Him, worship and praise Him, that at the end there was a prayer session, and God said like trust in Him , and love Him even more, that even in the business of studies and all put Him first and trust in Him, it is like God answered like no matter what, put me first, trust in me that all things will be well, and i did and i realise gantt chart somehow seemed right after tht! maybe it was before but i didnt see but no matter what! God made it right!
thank God for it, that now as i walk my path with Him, i have set certain things to keep growing in Him, in faith,trust,love &do great things for Him &fulfill His purpose for me in my little humble ways !
Ilove you God!

this week is yaaay! last week of TEP for me!, after wed no more presentation, just getting ready for GEMS assesment and i am done! HAPPINESS! 3 weeks hols youre filled with dates almost!
and through this i realise i have not been spending much time at home, even if i am at home, we oso dun really chat alot, plus i get nagged like nobody's business and scolded! i practically hide in my room to take cover, or go out! oh well this is the sad thing about growing up, this will happen but i know that after that somehow at home after you grow through a certain age the family ties will be back agn! and i am tired of trying to make things straight, when i have changed and yet my parents think i am the same old daughter they have raised for 18 years! soon they will see the change cos they are blinded by the world.

i realise i love the nature and outdoors!
i wanan go to the botanical gardens for picnic! bunno, bimbo &ezora wanna go?
henderson waves with bunno and hammo will you join us pls?
finally swimming with bff!
friday alpha:) cos its in town so i can go before movie night at grand cathy with a.team peeps:)
and youth service once again:) happiness!!!
the following weeks to come will be even more awesome! i shall talk about my weeks bit by bit!

XOXO Natty

Thursday, September 17, 2009

joyfully, gleefully, having fun painting!

This few days i had so much fun! even though mon and tues i had projecdt meetings and its project week but me me me still went out!!!
wed had swimming meet bimbo and bunno!!!

had so much fun with them girls chatting, laughing, shopping at wierd places, and just chilling, chatting getting to know more about each others life cos heh, so many things have happened recently that we just cant get enough of each other!!!
today went to bunno house to help her paint her room in lilac colour! it looks so nice and yummy! we were covered in paint and yet we didnt care and went over to hg point:) omg!!! hhaahahs, thn we chilled over mac ice-cream!!! omg and ezora you are so cute! really nice knowing you!!!

bun bun! i have said it many times and i am gonna say it again! i love you loads and that i am proud of you! you have grown a great deal since last year and what happened, but proud to say tht even though you nvr really moved on after a big circle but you changed your lifestyle, you have grown in God, in Alpha and i can see more maturity in you that makes me so proud of you with a little tear at the corner of my eye!!! hahahs from last year and to this year our friendship have changed alot also. last year we both had our own lives you had your A's and R, i had school and my new friends, we did drifted but i know i still could count on you to give me advice and give me strength even though i see you once a week! but this year we grew closer once again and especially during this holiday i have seen you so many times a week!!! *GRINS* this year esp when i went through the valley, where i struggled, be a puppet of the world, so many other issues but you reassure me its normal, that you gave me advice that i am really thankful for your advice, encouragement and shoulder to cry on and hugs to comfort me!
LOVE YOU LOADS BUN! thanks for all you have done!!!
i am so excited for our sisterly date on the walk and alpha-pha plus BATAM!!! hahas!

hairband shopping!!!

chill out at macas with ice scream!!

my first time painting!

bun painted her name on the wall!!!

ezoraaaaaaa!

wed at kopitiamchilling over ban-mian and bbtea:)

sentosa with ALPHA-PHA <3

xoxo i love you :)

BFF i wann say this that things will somehow nt be the same, even if i allow you into my life and you know everything, you have smth extra in your life, tht the balance will not be there. hat smth will be sacrificied and i can dare tell you it will be your friendship, ppl will give you space, last min dates can noo longer be carried out cos you have your own plans, you will feel left out cos we have common topics or rather have more opportunity to go out tgt so we will have more things to chat, and cos you have someone else in your life, and know why you feel so alone, i can say God is teaching you smth, to be more independent! you have nvr been really independent, but if i ask if you dare survive in sch alone with no friends and run well the race for god i can guess the ans is no cos even if i ask you to do smth alone you will say see who goes with me, you must grow in confidence and independence!if u did read the top part you will see how close friends can drift apart, and i will be flying, i am scared of our friendship but i guess even if everything is lost i have God and really let Him be your strength even if all else fails and also your problem is when ppl judge you, you are afraid, but be strong, and know that ultimately all things is btw you and God and nt others judgement k!

p/s: your letter will come real soon! Hugs!:)

XOXO Natty

Sunday, September 13, 2009

I LOVE ALPHA-PHA

This weekend was awesome! i loved it and enjoyed it loads:)
friday was a torture! super tired but i still crashed at 3am and i did online shopping as per usual! i shld be back on my fast on it again!

sat was great! went to culture and thn left early for jerome party!
JEROME your turning 21! bet you must be over the moon!
glad you liked your present and that thanks for all you have done by teaching and baking for us!
the food was good and the cake we brought i bet you was yummy :)

sun was the bomb!
WENT TO SENTOSA WITH ALPHA :)
had such a whale of a time! i am slightly burned! hahahas
ut i did beach volley ball which i am proud of myself tht i can actually do it,
improved on my ultimate frisbee skills cos i played some!
did captains ball and feet was burned cos we didnt wear slippers to play!
sat at the beach to chillax and chat with bun, had an awesome time with bun chatting and gg to the comes fair!
thanks bunno for going with me!
i realised how happy alpha can make me even though it is a simple outing, and i am gna try go for worship night!

next week is mad ! project week and i have a long list of outings hahahs! and it is till oct!omg!
mon - CS project meeting
tues- PM project meeting
wed- date with my fav bimbo
thurs- bunno date!
fri- alpha worship night
sat- ernest bday
sun- SLACK!
thn thn thn i get to submit my projects and my 3 weeks hols:):):)
and the list of things to do!
1. date sweets out
2. date peishan out
3. pau birthday
4. date bunno out for henderson and sentosa again
5. bimbo gna crash my house
6. GOING TO BATAM WITH BUNNO!
7.train for nike human run????
8. date gang ouut before school reopens i hope???

i realise my hols is filled wiith bunno dates!
i am so excited for it! oh bun I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THT THE SKY WILL DROP!
ahahhas! you are really awesome in my life, things tht i am gg throough you are a few steaps ahead of me but we complement each other in ways we can never imagine, pray for each other and help each other in times of needs! you are so awesome in my life! lets continue growing each other and keep track of each others life! i see a great future in you and let our hearts feelings be as it is cos God has a better plan that we cant see!
i am gna do many dates with you and I LOVE YOU :)
finally i can date you out properly! argh ! HAPPINESS! :D

XOXO Natty

Friday, September 11, 2009

MELLY'S DAY

hahahs! i have nth much going on in my life, actually there are many things
PM ICA 1& 2 was over, i guess it was ok! God will do His work and i done my best
CS roleplay was fun, elmo was such a star :) hahahas
and i guess i am heading into project week thn off i get my 3 weeks break in which i plan to laze at hm almost daily other thn for my sweets her date out! i promised and erm ele for a one on one and pau marina barrage i gotta stay at home! i am broke i just did some online shopping ! oops! f21 and old navy gets to tempting! so stay at hm i dun see shops no clothes to buy!
i wanna get an itouch ! its price has dropped ! DO YOU WANNA SPONSOR ME! but oh well youth camp is up and i have not paid in full :) heh heh heh! saving too!
and guess what, i got my email! I AM GOING TO NETHERLANDS i think, cos i still have to depend on the partnering uni if they want me!

lastly HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MELLY MOO DEARIE!

you have been a real awesome mentor when you peer guided me! i learnt alot and had loads of fun!keep growing in God as you pursue your dreams studying music!

XOXO Natty

Monday, September 07, 2009

packed schedules, empty lives

a week flies past real fast,
on thurs i was almost dying in school but i managed to survive, friday i died at home, cos i puked in the morning, see doctor, and i guess tummy problem and had fever plus sorethroat, and i slept like 3/4 of my friday away, when i said i am gonna study for my upcoming pm ica.
sat i went for N*C to be equally dead there, but God was amazing during worship i could not take it and i sat down on my chair and i started to weep and God the aircon was cold but my face was burning like He is burning all my illness away and let me sweat so i could recover, but during service i still had a panadol provided by CY bestfriend :) but all i can say God is real awesome, even though saturday night was the worse night i had, i could not sleep and was still puking. but now i am cmpletely healed, Thank God man! no more suffering :)

i caught G-force with my auunt and cousin was an amazing show :) rreally enjoyed it,
and i love bus rides at times cos i can look out of my window with a praise or worship song blasting out of my earphones while i think/marvel about God, or think other things and i realise that i am having a packed schedules, if not for studies i will be out of my houes with different people, i still spent time at home with my parents and some of my bestfriends but it is been a while since i spent one on one quality time with Bff, but like i said previously nothing stands the same as it was anymore, and i realise i do not do this wonderful things with my parents, mum is too busy with baby, dad i dun ask now,me when the nicest show is out i ask my friends first and mainly they love swimming more also, there is like no more us even though we still sit down eat, chat, argue discuss things and such but movies is so rare now.
that i felt so empty on the bus, like i had everything placed in front of me, i know what iwant , i reach out of it by striving hard and giving my best, i have time for pleasure, no riches but blessed enough to pamper myself with shopping/movies/food outings at times, my dream of going abroad to study is just a hand reach away, God is the centre of my life, i am depending so much on Him and all now even though at times i am far from Him, or not listening to Him but still He is very much present.
i felt lonely, afraid, empty, countless of emotions, this might be what people say packed schedule empty lives of maybe blame it on emotions cos i am pms-ing but i choose the former cos i really believe in it, maybe it is time to let go everything and trust in God to give me the best like what my blog title says simple joys , through simple and special ways but still unique smiles will e formed.

i am tired father, let me rest on your shoulders
my emotions are to the brim, my tears are overflowing, lend me your shoulders
i am confused, sort my confusion, clear the path and set it straight
take all my problems away or help me with the solutions
i don't want to be alone running this tiring race, carry me to the end
fill my heart with your love, give me strength, let me depend on you more, let me feel not that afraid, alone, and instead let me feel more of my parents love, that it feels it is lost as we grow older and spent lesser time from home
take me out of this emotional turmoil, set me in you courts instead

but through all this emotions i know you want me to see through it as a way where i grow from a child to a young lady in you, that you seem so far but you will shine through for me when it is THE moment for it but my faith is diminishing at times cos it seems so hard, but i know when i look back someday, i will say yes onoy God can get me through that!
i love you father!

XOXO Natty

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

proposed?

i am absolutely going mad! this happens when you are studying CS for ICA the next day! next week will be even hectic so see more of me like this! but thank God CS ica1 is over,gonna race against everything, and trust in God for the rest of my ICAs.

and after everything need to de-stress, so we head down to the grand cathy to catch the proposal, cos your truly really wanted to watched it, was funny, sad at parts and overall not bad! 3stars if i were to say cos quite disapppointed with the ending! and here are the picturs of the day with my 2 lovely BSC buddies! BRUNO! joke of the day! hahahs!

XOXO Natty

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

happy teachers day!

What do you do when it is teachers' day eve there is nothing to do and you decide to meet up with your sec sch girlfriends at a mall just a stone throw away from school?

you first eat and 2nd play arcade!

this was how 3 girls spent their time at the mall they frequented almost daily in sec 3 and occassionally in sec 4 due to the remedial classes.

miss those times and those place, but all i can say is thank God for people like them, we do senseless things, when we meet is eat, shop and chat even more nonsense!

ele: 8 year of friendship and counting, really glad to have you in my life even thought when we were tgt we fight almost on a alternate days basis cos being only chile we are quite spoiled at times, glad you love your very belated birthday presents. meet up soon for a one on one time soon man!

tnc:4 years of friendship is not long nor short, there was a time we used to dislike each other but now we can sit and chat everything, you and your bill gates! tsk!

we have drifted, change, grown, matured but still in the hearts of ours we know that if there is no one we still at least have each other. thank God for them.

lastly HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!

and i had school, damn! and tomorrow i have CS ICA and i am here updating my blog! how amazing, hope the many times i read through is enough plus some common sense , plus God blessing over me and that the paper is easy is enough to get me a good grade!

XOXO Natty